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i hate numbers, i hate mathematics, i hate algebra, i hate geometry, i hate trigonometry, i hate chemistry, and i hate physics.

i super hate those subjects because of the confusion that they gave me and giving me. i'm really not fun of computing and analyzing problems, it leads me to negative vibes and being so stupid in solving. i really don't have the passion with numbers, we are opposite and i really hate it but being opposite with numbers makes me think the statement, "opposite attracts." we really had a an attraction, an attraction of negativity.

enough of being bitter with numbers, i have a story and here it is. Yesterday we met our our prof in physics and we had a session in morning and afternoon. In our morning session i received the result of my midterm examination and guess what, i git 30/75. actually, hindi na ako nagulat because i know that i'll be failing but really gave my best that's why there's sadness in me (you can't pull it out). we also computed our midterm grade and thank God because i got 78.8, in short 79! i'm not the type of person who is really concern with my grades but i always give my best shot. so that's what happened in the morning session. in our afternoon session we had a task sheet. a task sheet is always given to us every after the topic, but as we start the task sheet out professor called me and he let me bring my stuffs. she let me ask questions and then i grab the opportunity i asked everything that i need to ask.

to my beloved professor in physics, Ms. Maria Eliza P. Cruz, super than you po.

being in a wrong situation doesn't mean you'll be failing, sometimes it depends on the people you are with.

a family is a family

This picture was taken last month, few days before our dad go back to Angola for his work. Ito ata yung first time na magkaroon kami ng may pagkaserious picture, hindi kasi masyadong laging nagsasama-sama eh. Kapag andyan daddy dun lang talaga nagsasabay sa pagkain at pagsimba pero pag wala na kasi siya dun kami bumabalik sa usual na ginagawa namin. We all have our commitments outside pero minsan talaga pag nandito ang daddy talagang kailangan mong nasa bahay or sumama lagi sa lakad dahil sabi niya nga minsan lang daw manyari yun.

Siguro ganoon talaga, kailangan nating i-treasure at ingatan ang mga tao at bagay na minsan lang natin makita at pangyayaring minsan lang mangyari. This explains that everything change and if it already happened it means it happened. Cannot be repeated! So open your arms to the things and people whom you want share your life with.

we're just one

ambon, hangin, lamig

Huwebes ng gabi, pagkababa ko ng keep may nakita akong bata na nakasiksik sa gilid ng pader sa puregold almar kasabay ng sobrang lamig na hangin at ambon, nakita ko ang batang nag-iisa at walang kasama. Wala siyang kaibigang pwedeng kausapin o mga kapamilyang pwedeng magbantay at tumingin sa kanya.

Sa nakita kong iyon, may napagtanto lamang ako, na minsan mas pinipili pala nating mag-isa kung hindi na natin kaya yung nasa paligid natin, kung alam natin na masyado ng malamig ang mga nangyayari, sobrang hangin na ng binibitawan, at maulan na ng sakit at karamdaman. Mas pinipili nating mag-isa hindi dahil gusto natin magpapansin o dahil inuunahan lang natin ang gagawin sa atin ng ibang tao pero dahil kadalasan sa buhay natin, nagsasawa rin tayo sa ingay ng paligid natin. Ito ang maaaring dahilan kung bakit ang bata ay nakasiksik sa pader, dahil pinili niya iyon, kung sa katunayan nga pwede naman siya tumakbo at hamunin ang lamig, ambon, o hangin na nasa paligid niya.

Noong inalala ko ulit ang bata, parang nakita ko siyang nakamasid lang sa paligid niya at nag-aabang sa mga bagay-bagay na pwede niya ng balikan. Nakikiramdam siya, kinakausap ang nasa paligid niya gamit ang kanyang mga mata.

:-(

I would like to thank this week for letting me go back to my hobby (this! blogging) but on the other hand i would like to hate this week on what I've done a while ago. My mom talked to me and we had a discussion about our bill in maynilad and all of a sudden, she said that her sugar is still high and told me that with a teary eye. We already know that she has a Diabetes but we're just laughing it about because we know that she's so strong to handle that but what happened a while ago is the first time I've seen my mom feeling sad about her situation, I feel empathy.

I said that I hated this week because when she told that to me and looked to me eye to eye, I turned my head into the computer. I want to hug her and to to comfort her but I can't. I can't because I need to be strong; I can't because I know that I also can't handle that dramatic scene.

(sigh)

i'm back

YES! I'm back! I actually planned to make a new blog that composed of my recorded podcast but I actually deleted it because of my not so good voice. Now, I'm back and ready to use this as my back up friend. ^_^ So I really wanted to tell everything, every little thing that is happening to me and happened to me but telling everything is the lesson that I've learned since I said goodbye last October 6, 2009. ^_^ I will not explain myself briefly but I'll just want you to know that this is not my diary but this is the way I see things both negative and positive.

Please be with me AS I NOTICE the unnoticeable.

Hindi ako tsismoso! Hindi rin ako pakialamero! at mas lalong hindi ako daldalero! AKO LANG AY ISANG SIMPLENG TAO NA NAGHAHANGAD NG PAGBABAGO. ^_^

song

"I just can't help but to play the song again, and it let me remember the people who touched my individuality, the way I sing, dance, write, speak, pray, and the way I lead. Now, I'm on my way to create a new song that will let me touch other lives."

-mikael fidel enriquez

my learning about SDT

my learning about

SELF-DETERMINATION THEORY
by Ann Gillard, Ph.D. Student

I have learned that one way to boost your determination is by attending a group camp, wherein people can experience supports and opportunities for their social, psychological, and physical development. At camp, youth can explore identities, develop skills, and interest, make choices, and experience intrinsic motivation.

In self-determination theory is generally defined as “When self-determined, people experience of sense of freedom to do what is interesting, personally important, and vitalizing.” The two parts that are particularly useful in the self-determination theory (SDT) are motivation and supporting the psychological basic needs: competence, relatedness, and autonomy.

In motivation it is viewed as being dynamic, constantly evolving process, in contrast to a static. Enduring that is proposed by other motivational theories. Is also stated that there are six types of motivation, and those are the following: amotivation, extrinsic motivation, introjected motivation, intrinsic motivation, identified, motivation, and integrated motivation.

I believe that SDT will help us especially the youth of today in making our dreams come true. It motivates everyone and let everyone determine the uniqueness of one self. In SDT, self-direction, self-expression, and motivated involvement rotate in every action of every people.

Displaced Aggression

"this is my background of the study in my research paper about displaced aggression"

If a person is in a bad mood and he will displace his mood to others that are innocent on what happened, misunderstanding will occur because of the attitude that was shown. This behavior is called, Displaced Aggression.

Displaced Aggression may occurs when a person is provoked, and later on they will aggresses their temper against the innocent target, this is what Thomas F. Denson confirmed in his research article entitled, “Displaced Aggression in Children and Adolescents.” People sometimes can’t control their feelings especially if that feeling is anger because of the unexpected outcome that brings them in irritation. They can’t control their selves because they are manipulated by that anger, and sometimes the worst part is, if there will be revenging ways.

This kind of behavior is just one of the much known types of aggression. Aggression, from the site Wiki Education-The Psychology Wiki, is something that covers a wide variety that practices the launching attacks and destructive actions. In this case, displaced aggression is a harmful behavior, but is it really a harmful behavior, or just an unhealthy behavior.

Displaced Aggression may create conflict and misunderstanding in many aspects of living; it’s a cycle that’s so difficult to control because this behavior has an emotion but can be motivated by what we called, “feeling.”

Determining the weakness is a good way to be improved and be developed in this world, that’s why people also need to know their negative side. One way to determine is letting people answer some specific questionnaire about a certain topic, like what this research paper used. This paper used Displaced Aggression Questionnaire (DAQ), questionnaire that truly measures the displaced aggression behavior of a certain person. This questionnaire has a subscale that will let the researchers arrived on a right assessment, those subscales are the following: revenge planning, angry rumination, and how to engage in displaced aggression.

This research paper contains information about one of the much known type of aggression, the displaced aggression. This type of aggression may create conflict between two groups or two persons that are both innocent on each others’ mood; the one is angry, aiming for revenge, and the one is innocent, relaxed in interacting with everyone he is seeing.

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